Im not BRAGGING~ I just LOVE HIM

But my life did turn out to be better with HIM around..
To really think back to what really happened on the 1st day I met him
really do puts a smile on my face.. .

How silly he was when I first met him
To how he now would try his best to do anything he could just for me.. .
Being with him alone was never dull due to his
Silly, wacky, funny, and charming attitudes.. .

Mum was never worried whenever Im with him
because he was responsible enough to take care of me
& I was never afraid whenever Im with him too
as I would know that he will always be there for me.. .

Lately, I've been really moody.. .
Having tons of work and all cramped up thoughts in my head
which I think helped ruin his mood with my bad mood
but no matter how I acted and pouted and demanded and ruin his day by not putting myself in his shoes when he was working his ass off trying to earn some income,

In the end what made feeling guilty almost every night
Is when I received a message from him saying that HE LOVES ME
I couldnt help but to recall the way I acted towards him
As I would be left sleepless on my bed until I was tired enough to fall asleep hours later.. .

I LOVE REINER LIM so much~
I really hope that nothing would come between us
Because I really hope that I could spent the rest of my life with him.. .

Happy days~

Lately, a lot happened in my Life~
& I wasnt any diligent enough to update anything of it.. .

Well maybe because Life to me now is everything,
nothing BUT
Full of Happiness, Joy, Fun & Excitement together
EVERYDAY being able to be with him~

I never expect that my story would turn out this way
as I have always thought that my prince charming would be someone who acts like a PRINCE and behave like one~

Everyone thought that my type of guy would be a bookworm type
who wears a specs, dresses in suits & holds dictionaries..
But
What I found was a guy who doesnt wear specs, dresses in Tshirts but suits occasionally & not really into books~
&
What not everyone sees in him is that
he has a very good eyes sight,
looks tremendously handsome in simple wear
doesnt need books to score 4.0 flat
& has a big heart for me~

He's who he is and I LOVE HIM~
He was never shy when he around me or my family
which to me, is a bonus~
because I LOVE my family and I glad he do too...

He's also a great cook
which is another bonus to me because I'm not

He's everything I'm looking for just a little childish
which now, I'm glad I found him~
& surprisingly none of my friends think I would fall for him
BUT Im glad I did..

He is the BEST THING that had happened to me
& I cherish every moment I had with him
I just know that he is the one for me~

Ahh.. . The STRESS~

I believed that many had gone through what I am going through now
Sleepless nights;
Tired brain;
Headaches;
Anxiety;
Clueless;
Brain FREEZE;
lack of INSPIRATION
& finally

T H E B R E A K D O W N~

But whatever it is,
It's gonna end soon & I do hope that everything ends well too.. . .

Was really busy lately especially after my laptop had it's own break down
which in turns KILLS me because I wasnt prepared for it after saving everything in it
BUT NOT IN MY USB
I was devastated into having to do everything all over again
with only limited time in hand

I WANT to Ace's MY SUBJECT
I NEEDED to proof to my parents that I CAN TOO STUDY even with a boyfriend
I CANT score less that what I had before
I WILL do my BEST as I told myself.. .

But the only problem now is

CAN I ??

WILL I ??

I'm sad~

I dont know why but somehow I had a feeling that He's unhappy~
I felt sad that he didnt want to tell me what's going on
that he didnt want to share.. .
I felt as thought I was useless as his girlfriend that I cant do nothing

I know he didnt want me to worry or anything
Or am I just thinking too darn much
I dont know but sigh~
He asked if I wanted dinner
I said OK just so to accompany him because I'm not really that hungry
Just wanted to spend time with him even though I am rushing for my assignment~
He said he'll cook but I really didnt want to bother or trouble him
I rather sleep less to finish up my assignment than to had him waste his time
I rather do much of every little thing so to lessen his burden.. .
I DO NOT want to be a BURDEN

But in the end,
I got so tired trying to be nice
I got so tired trying to please him
& I guess he was growing tired himself to trying to please me~
we got mad and started to talk sarcastically & I hated it.. .

My life~

A new beginning of what I really wanted to feel..
A brand new start on something which I really am happy... .
I didnt want to compare but there is just to much about ... that I really LOVE~
I'm so .. .... right now~

I know things might have been going really fast
But I cant help feeling really happy every time I see ...
I'm liking every moment
& I'm looking forward everyday.. .
I just am so so so happy nowadays that I just cant content my feeling

This feelings seems to be bursting out of excitement and joy & I just cant wait for this Sunday =)
I'm going HOME!~

Things Happening~

Which I never knew I was going through with it.. .
& I felt that things changed drastically after I started working~

I'm not sure but I'm feeling a lot more happier.. .
Although, I'm usually tired after work & always rushing with assignments..
I dont know if things are turning the way I wanted it to be
Or am I just being all naive again~

I sure am not good in picking nor making any decisions..
But I do hope that my future stays bright.. .

sigh~
I wonder if everything will turn all right ??

I Had FUN last night

& I enjoyed it.. .
I guess I didnt have my mother's gene after all
Who was able to handle a bottle of wine just for herself
& NOT getting drunk~

For me,
for the 1st time,
I think I had FUN getting all 'high'
Was getting light and.. .
smiling and grinning =D
But I guess I was still fine because I was still able to read and count.. .
I had clear visions and still was able to walk straight

But I guess the best part of all,
I was having fun with my friends.. .
It was fun seeing each of us doing silly stupid stuff.. .
caring for each other when we walk
& asking if we were all right after drinking those wines like water as thought to clench thirst >.<

My eyes were red & when I finally got to bed,
My head starts to turn & so is my room.. .
My body was heating up and my adrenaline was rushing
Blood circulation was great!!

He who had me drinking apologized as he felt terrible
She who had me drinking brought me to my room.. .
^^
Overall, it was really a nice day to be with friends. .