BOYS are really JACK ASSES ! ! !

BOYS are really JACK ASSES !!
Always using their F.U .. S.O.A.B and so on..
Doesnt mean that they like saying it that we like reading or hearing it
And saying that we're wrong that we cant understand them
What do you mean I cant understand??

Hey I'm ENGLISH EDU. I know what F means
I used them too but not as much as you do as to complete ur F-ing sentence I dont
F U C K ! ! !

Tired Of .. . .

I'm so tired..
Having to do this and that
Helping others doing this and that
But have they ever noticed that sometimes I just need some rest ??

I tired of Him~
having to chase after false dreams
althought I knew it from the beginning

But have he ever said that he was after me?
or giving some little hint that this is all worth my time doing??
sms-ing him althought I didnt wish to just to get a reply..
How sickening and pathetic can I get ?

I wonder how long will it get for me to get over this TIRED life of mine..

In Dilemma~

I really have no idea what I want in Life~
So, TELL ME WHAT I WANT IN LIFE ??
The overly complicated decision that I need to make in life is stressting the Hell out of me!!

my final Test is drawing closer as my mood nowadays swings to a more moodier wheather...
Progress arent working for my test as I'm not understanding what I'm studying~

Having to work all alone doing 10 person's assignment without proper help is also slaughtering me alive!!

they are so many things that I wish to let loose
I want to be finally be able to say I QUIT
I want out in LIFE
I want ...
I want..

( Sigh )

LIFE isnt fair or am I just thinking too damn much ??

here, I'm liking a guy which i was afraid to confess~
Is it telling him that ''I LIKE you'' that difficult ??
Actually telling him was not a problem
It's the after-math I'm worry about

See, I'm planning that no matter what, I wont want to work in Malaysia~
I'll definately migrate out from this country
But if out relationship ever develope,
We will be seperated by trillion miles away~

It wont be fair is it ??
sigh~ kill me!!

Yesterday, I purposely ask a few Questions that may lead me to his answer
But, he didnt really answered me~

So hating this feeling~

From Aww To ISH~

Okay it's undenialble that I had a BLAST these days; having a time of my LIFE
chatting,sms-ing and the best part, I was even able to MEET HIM =)
Thinking about every moment really made my day brighter with smiles


Today chat was as usual..
but I guess I had it too much~
in the end,
sigh~ ignore me ==''

Cloud NINE

This feeling;
The chills in heart as though my organs were tingling inside me
This feeling;
Getting all nervous and grins all the time is making me embarassed
This feeling;
is so cloud nine

I'm so happy today couldnt even describe
but I was wondering if he felt the same way too..

well dont u think that 18 is the sweetest number ?
I'm 18
today's 18th
& the 1st day we met
was 18th

P/s Hope that he'll never read this ever!!!

What I've learn today ~ Appreciation

so, I had a visit to my previous school C O N V E N T
I had a chat with my teachers and my juniors =)

Everything was so fine today until I was asked if I really wanted what I was studying ?
I really wonder~
Even my art teacher said that am creative.. actually I guess that is all I wanted to know all along~
I'm clueless about my future
so I'm actually hoping that I'm leading the correct one =)
I wanted everything to be perfect for my family when I grow up..
I wanted my parents to be happy
I wanted them to enjoy LIFE as much as I love them


I never thought telling someone that is so dear to me to a friend of mine would help me appreciate them more
Maybe because it helps me to think back about what they had done for me..
All the trouble they took
All the mess they made
All the time they wasted
All the money they spent &
All the energy they used
Just to help me..

As time goes by, this actually made me see how much my parents LOVE and CARE for me

HER. . . .. . .. .

"The clock is ticking,
My head is pounding,
My heart is beating,
& so am I breathing..

This is everything that everyone is experiencing unless your not living..
& Irritation.. is one that i'm experiencing"

Guess what ??
In everyday life, people experience all sorts of different emotions
they discover who they really are
and I guess, having my cousin over is really making me understanding who I really avoiding to be..
~Turing me into someone bad

She is always that inconsiderate thinking that everyone owes it to her
That we should do things for her just because that she is our guest
BUt have she ever heard of OVERLY WELCOME GUEST are A DRAG~
Switching everything on without permission,
acting this is as if her own curb
Asking me to do things for her
WHICH I THINK it totally just for her...

How selfish can she be of a girl.. DO she think that everyone like and owe it to her ??
GOD DAMN how I need to tolerate with her!!

she really know how to boil my blood ..
ARGH~
ahhhh...
check this check that for her..
do this bring that for her..
WHAT do she take me as ??
her personal holiday maid ?
HEY I'm on holiday too..

trying to please her is a manner and I know that & that is why I'm tolerating her
But do she know that I'm doing this is just a volunteer
It not a must; It's just a favour..


PLEASE my dear, I dont give a damn


HER parents are nothing like that..
More well taught and like
What happen to her ??
Is it because of KL too much??

EMbaRRaSSmenT~

It was a Happy Ending I was hoping~
The tingling excitement which I keeped on imagining in my head
How we would meet and all..
But it all went down the drain after a phone called
which was made by me
when he said EM.. quite busy~ GOSH

E M B A R R A S S I N G argh~

Why On EARTH do I nEED someone like him~
and who on earth am I caring so damn much about it ?? He'd not anyone to me..
I'm just loosing it maybe because he's TALL and FAIR~
so I guess APPEARENCE DOES matter..

My TuMMY is BLOATING~

1st of all, I would like to announce that I LOVE MY FAMILY~
I had a blast in Penang together with my family..
My dad treated me RM76.80 ice cream which I myself would never imagine eating (Haagen-Dazs)
Even my mum was shock that my dad brought us there
That was when mum told me that HOW MUCH my DAD LOVES ME!~
and at that moment, I made another vow that I would always want my DAD to eat whatever he wanted to eat without any hesitation~ even if it means RM10,000 for just a small cup of coffee
If he wants it, HE'LL HAVE IT!!

Althought I had fun, but the fun only started when I arrived because, my journey was a terrible one.. My head HURTS & My stomoch CHURNS

OVERALL total FUN~

Today, we even had BBQ
GOD DAMN I'M FULL ==
my TUMMY IS BLOATING with all the tender, love, and care from my FAMILY...
Yogurt, Vitagen, Pau, BBQ chicken, sausage, bean soup, TIRAMISU, home-made fresh juice, curry fish, Penang Laksa, SatAY, Osyter, and so lot more.. you want it, YOU GOT IT!!..
HOW on EARTH am I not GOING TO GROW FAT!!~
TOO much tender, love and kindness from mum and dad... =='

Tell me that I'm SELFISH

I hate that I'm not smart
I hate that I'm not Miss Universe
I hate that I'm not unique in any special WAY
I hate that my parents are not RICH
But I am thankful that I'm not disabled in anyway
I'm thankful that my parents care
I'm thankful that I'm still able to fill my stomach
I'm thankful that I have more than enough

ALTHOUGHT,

I wanted a better LIFE
I wanted everything I envied others that I dont
I need a HAPPY ENDING
I NEED A FIARY TALE...

I know that this is GREED
But this is HUMAN we're talking about
we might not say it
but deep down
we envied it~
so dont deny it...