Ahh.. . The STRESS~

I believed that many had gone through what I am going through now
Sleepless nights;
Tired brain;
Headaches;
Anxiety;
Clueless;
Brain FREEZE;
lack of INSPIRATION
& finally

T H E B R E A K D O W N~

But whatever it is,
It's gonna end soon & I do hope that everything ends well too.. . .

Was really busy lately especially after my laptop had it's own break down
which in turns KILLS me because I wasnt prepared for it after saving everything in it
BUT NOT IN MY USB
I was devastated into having to do everything all over again
with only limited time in hand

I WANT to Ace's MY SUBJECT
I NEEDED to proof to my parents that I CAN TOO STUDY even with a boyfriend
I CANT score less that what I had before
I WILL do my BEST as I told myself.. .

But the only problem now is

CAN I ??

WILL I ??

I'm sad~

I dont know why but somehow I had a feeling that He's unhappy~
I felt sad that he didnt want to tell me what's going on
that he didnt want to share.. .
I felt as thought I was useless as his girlfriend that I cant do nothing

I know he didnt want me to worry or anything
Or am I just thinking too darn much
I dont know but sigh~
He asked if I wanted dinner
I said OK just so to accompany him because I'm not really that hungry
Just wanted to spend time with him even though I am rushing for my assignment~
He said he'll cook but I really didnt want to bother or trouble him
I rather sleep less to finish up my assignment than to had him waste his time
I rather do much of every little thing so to lessen his burden.. .
I DO NOT want to be a BURDEN

But in the end,
I got so tired trying to be nice
I got so tired trying to please him
& I guess he was growing tired himself to trying to please me~
we got mad and started to talk sarcastically & I hated it.. .