Had it Bad ~

Feeling really down about what had happened
It was not like I did it on purpose or something like that . .
I wasnt lying or anything
I was more to agreeing to everything . .
But I guess it's better that it ended out this way. .
I did wished to apologized
But I didnt want things to hold on without no ending

Mid term is drawing closer. .
My life is in a way getting duller
I couldnt pay full aattention because it seems that things are still getting in my head
I still am not sure What I Want IN MY LIFE . .
I've tried figuring out but it didnt seemed to work
My god !!! This LIFE of mine is such a mess . .
Why cant I be good in something so at least I know which ground to stand

Today, I planned on changing my course
and of course hopefully I could
I might consider taking psychology as I really find it interesting
To study about what human really thinks . .

But the problem I'm having is well
FINANCIAL PROBLEM~
It all comes back to money
No MONEY no TALK !!!
GOSH I really hate that annoyingly true proverb. .

If I could persue to somewhere else then, It's GoodBYE MALAYSIA and HELLO OVERSEAS
If not
Hello HELL.. goodbye FANTASY ~

sigh~ If I am only smarter than average people would be then, life wouldnt be this dreadful . . .

GOD ,
ARE you by any chance looking at me ???
GIVE some hint as to how I will lead my life . .
I need you !!~
sob . . .