soonER or LAter~

I felt like giving up even before telling him now
I felt all this is just too much too handle
I felt all I did is just too damn silly
I felt I'm thinking him too much

even when I'm having sleepless nights
He was the one who came to my mind first

I told my bro about this today and it made me felt worst when I heard him through the other line all concern about me
I felt blessed having him as my brother
to comfort me and to reason with me
He told me that this relationship would not work but if I really am going to try,
he said go ahead
He did not supported me because he thinks that long relation would not work
I think so too but
I'm now I had already madly crazily fallen for him
but still,
my bro, He's giving me his full support when he heard me sobbing on the other line

I really need to see him this Chinese New Year
Although I know that this would probably ruin all my coming Chinese New Years
But . ..
I guess I can no longer hold on to it any longer~
I feel that I might just break
sooner or later
&
sooner or later,
I'll still need to face him
so why not now~